Friday, June 15, 2007

Getting sick, kinda rough

Well, looks like I spoke too early about getting sick. Starting yesterday at work, I started to feel it. Then today, all I've been doing is getting sick. I can't even keep water down right now, but I think it's starting to go away a little bit. I just wish I could keep this nausea medicine down long enough for it to take effect. Kinda ironic, huh?

Thursday, June 14, 2007

Second Chemo Treatment

Had my second chemo treatment this past Tuesday. Everything during the chemo went good, just a little tired from not sleeping good the night before. Same side effects as last time. Real fatigued, a little nauseated, and my bones hurt some from the Leunasta shot. All of this was getting to me today at work, and I had to leave early. I felt bad, but my supervisor told me everyone was behind me, and was shocked that I'm doing as well as I am. So, it was partly expected. Made me feel good that they are there for me, and no concerns whatsoever for covering me on a moment's notice.

Still haven't lose my hair, appetite is the same, and still amazed that this is all, so far. Thanks to everyone who keeps in touch. I promise to get in touch with everyone who's emailed me. Sorry for a not to exciting email. I guess nothing new is a good thing in my case. One good thing going on at the chemo treatment center is that they're starting up a support group for all of the cancer patients, and I was asked to help out with it. For both of my treatments, I haven't seen anyone close to my age, so maybe with this group, I'll meet some. It's just kinda hard going through this with no one to really talk to who is is going/has gone trough cancer. Don't get me wrong, it's great being in touch with everyone, but I guess it's just different talking to someone who's had/has cancer. Guess it's just the common link. Well, I'll get going. Thanks again to everyone for listening to me ramble on a bit. God bless.

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Wide awake in the middle of the night

Well, here I am, 5 a.m. and I've been up for about 2 hours now. Can't sleep at all. My left leg is hurting, my right one keeps getting little spasms. My right shoulder grinds now, after the port surgery. And I can't sleep more than two to three hours a night because of the steroid injection they gave me during chemo. So, I'm having a fun night for sure. O'well, could be a lot worse. I could be in the hospital in a lot worse condition, so I am grateful for that. I'm also grateful to my friends. The multiple emails and phone calls I've received from them has been a great motivation for me. I really enjoy talking to all of them, some whom I haven't spoken with in years. Partly my fault, partly just loosing contact information. But all in all, things are great considering the circumstances.

One of my friends, Amanda, who's mom is a recent survivor of breast cancer, has been very encouraging to me. She will tell me all the things her and her mom went through, and the things that helped them out. When I talked to her yesterday, she was saying (about her mom) that God wouldn't put you through all of this if He didn't have some kind of awesome plan for you life. I keep getting told that too, but nothing has materialized yet. Guess that's the frustrating part of it all. When will I be able to move on into what God has planned for me? Am I there now, cause I don't see it. But in it all, even though I may get tired and frustrated with it all, I know He's there coaching me along. I just wish things were a little easier. haha It's all good though. As long as there's a good outcome for me or someone else, then it's all worth it.


Friday, June 1, 2007

First Treatment

Had my first treatment on 29 May 2007. Everything went a lot better than I thought it would. Thankfully, I hardly had any side effects right off the bat. About the only thing I had the first night was a slight upset stomach. But one of the meds they gave me took care of that real quick. On the 30th, I had a Neulasta shot, basically a medicine to boost the white blood cell count. That makes the bigger bones hurt a little bit. It's enough to may me uncomfortable, but that's it.

Starting yesterday though, I've been getting tired a lot easier than normal. Yesterday, I took 3 or 4 naps. I've only taken one today so far, but am getting ready to go lay down again.

So, all in all, everything is going great. Not at all what I expected, but definitely grateful they're going as good as they are. But that might change with the next few treatments. I may start getting some of the other side effects, like losing my hair and getting more tired than now. We'll see though, I'm not going to wait around for them to come. I'm just going to keep plugging away like usual.

Thanks to all of my friends and family that have written me emails. It means a lot to me, and as soon as I can, I'll write everyone back individually. God bless you all.