Saturday, May 19, 2012

It's really been since January????

Well, for those who read this, I'm sorry for not keeping up with things.  Just really haven't had a whole lot of stuff going on for a while.  Until fairly recently, I suppose.
Got myself another mountain bike about a month or so ago.  Had sold my last one out of frustration, partly with some of the parts on it, partly with my own fitness.  So, I sold the bike I had, and didn't think I would miss riding at all.  Well, I was totally wrong.  I've been thinking about riding a lot, and missed not having a bike.  So, I got another one.
I've only ridden twice so far.  Ya see, on the second ride, at the end of the trail, I wrecked.  Didn't damage the bike at all.  But I did break my ankle!  Not a bad break, though.  Just chipped a bone.  Was in a walking cast for a few weeks, and now I'm out of that.  Still sore, but I think in about a week or so, I should be fine to ride.  Just gonna take it easier, and wrap my ankle for a while.

Yes, I'm a clutz. 

But, it's not gonna keep me from riding.  Just can't help but think of riding.  And those two rides I did get in, i really enjoyed.  I didn't try and ride real hard, or long.  Just went out with the mindset of just have fun.  And I did.  Just gonna take it easier than I was before, enjoy riding.  My fitness is no where near where I want it, and I'm not gonna push it too hard.  That's what I did before, and I burnt myself out.

I still have the grand ideas of doing long, overnight type rides.  A camping type ride, which they call bikepacking.  Basically backpacking, but instead of hiking, you ride a bike.  I've read a lot about it, and it sounds like a blast.  So, I'll work towards that.  No big, grand ideas or anything, not yet.  The time will come for all of that.  Right now, I just need to get back into riding, and working on my fitness.

As far as my cancer.  Things are still looking good.  Like my last post said, last PET scan was in December.  So glad to have that behind me.  Still have to do blood work the next few years, but for the most part, I'm over the hump.  I've been spending all this time trying to process it all.  This cancer shit has been at the forefront of my life for so long, it's weird knowing that, basically, it's now behind me.  Still working on moving beyond it.  And of course, it's still on my mind that there's still a chance it can come back.  God, if it does......I don't even want to think of it.

I've got a little more going on, that I'll write about more in another post soon.

As for this blog, seeing as how the cancer is basically behind me (hopefully forever), I gonna kinda change focus.  I'll start posting more on the fun things I'm doing.  Like mountain biking, fitness, some camping, and other fun stuff I'm doing with this new lease on life.  I guess to kinda show there is a life after cancer.  And I'll try and be a little more active with posting.  Not this one-post-every-5-months routine I've been doing lately.

So, with that, here's a few pics of the new mountain bike.  And I promise, I'm going to hold on to this one for a while!
The new bike is a 2012 Trek Cobia.  Nothing seriously fancy, but it's a fun bike to ride.  Thanks to Free Flite Bicycles for everything.

Top cap holds a "beverage" cap.  One of my favorite drinks.

Friday, January 20, 2012

Last PET scan

Had my last P.E.T. scan back in December.  And everything was clear!  So, that makes two years worth, and everything is looking great.  My doctor said she sees no reason to do any more scans.  That we will just do blood work for the next few years.  So, I think I'm over the hump. 

I'm so glad to be done with these scans.  Not that they were so bad, in particular.  But going and doing them each time, was just so nerve racking.  Because of that chance that something will show up this time, again.  That voice in the back of your mind saying: "What if they find something this time?  What are you gonna do?"  The anxiety of having to wait a week or two for the results is almost maddening.  So, thank the Lord above I made it through with flying colors.

So, now on with life, for the most part.  Other than the occasional blood check, I feel like I can finally move on.  Now I just have to deal with the after effects.  Those being the thyroid medicine and all of that.  Been finding out that my testosterone levels have been real low, which is probably what's contributing to my weight.  Which I'm still doing okay with, I'm down to 249 pounds.  But I'm just not making the gains I wanted, cardio-wise.  Not really getting any stronger, or cardio getting much better.  Maybe I'm just expecting too much?  I don't know.  But it seems that after all the exercising I've been doing all this time, I guess I just expected more.  So, if I get my testosterone levels back to where they should be, will that change?  I sure hope so. 

Not much else going on here.  Still not riding a mountain bike.  I'm missing it, honestly.  But don't know if I'll be able to ride.  With my knee, after a while of that repetitive motion, just makes it so sore.  But I did get those shots in my knee, and maybe once I get back into a little bit better shape, I'll give it a try again.  Maybe my weight is causing more problems than I expected.  Cause trying to pedal around as much weight as I'm trying to is making it that much harder, obviously.  We'll see.

So, with the P.E.T. scans being done with, another chapter in this story of my life is over with.  Feels good.  Feels strange.  Strange because this has been at the forefront of my life for so many years now.  I was first diagnosed in 2007, and it's now 2012.  Five freaking years.  On a path of life I NEVER expected to have to take.  But I've gotten through it, and still breathing.  I have a new lease on life, and am trying to make it better.